I am a forever disappointment.

Missing you

I miss seeing your smile.
I miss having a reason to drive to the ranch and wrecking my jeep with those pot holes.
I miss playing pool and losing to an old man - my papa.
I honestly miss hearing you tell me, “Listen to your mother,” because I know what you two have been through.
I miss your voice; you never yell at us, ever.
I’m gonna miss seeing you wear your 30-year-old Tori Richards shirts, your Washington t-shirt, and your marijuana ball cap; we know you knew what it was. Haha
I’m gonna miss your fish kelaguen and poki.
I miss it when you’d come to our house almost every night and how we’d visit you every weekend or so.

…I miss answering to, “Nene girl,” us granddaughters could never be anyone else’s.

I’ll always miss you papa and I’ll try not to cry too much in the future. At least I know you’re in a peaceful place and that your passing was peaceful as well.
I love you.

Wish you were here

Can’t tell if I was sleeping or daydreaming, but I could see you walking around and hanging out with us. I could hear you talking and laughing with us… Telling me to listen to my mother… But then I realize that I’m wrong. And you’re not here. It’s bittersweet because you’re gone but I’d rather you rest now than suffer any more than you had to.
I’ll miss you forever papa

-your nene girl